MARCH 15, 2008
I'm working on a new portfolio project for one of my college classes.
In High School AP Art 2, at the age of 16/17, I began a portfolio on addiction(a portfolio series I have yet to post on my website.) The series contained drug use and its emotional affects.
Now I'm 20 and am no longer a using addict.
I feel the need to finish the series. This time in photographs, depicting not only addiction, but recovery. I want to play the tape all the way through. I want to move on.
I have one idea, that contains several models and a set design. I don't have time for that. Sooooooooo I'm going to go with Plan B.
It will be a self portrait series with three parts.
1. Addiction 2. Moment of Clarity 3. Vision Quest
and within those parts, will be sub parts.
I haven't taken self portraits since I was in my active addiction, so this is a big deal to me, internally. I tried using Jane as a model, but I just couldn't get her to connect with what I was trying to convey. So, as a last resort, I will be using myself.
On another note, I recently met two artist's in Dallas who have greatly inspired me to continue painting, and that if I strive for what I believe in, it can happen for me too. Being a professional artist isnt just a fantasy, it can ACTUALLY HAPPEN! Congrats to them and to all they have accomplished.
I will not give up.
I am taking a leap of faith, and am going to quit my current job to find one that fits into what I want to do for a career.
I want my whole being to be surrounded by art.
I'm tired of being at a stand still.
*"Self-doubt is the worst enemy to creativity"
-Sylvia Plath*